My Acne Journey Day 2: Revealing one self

Hi everyone! welcome back to my blog.

Today is Day 2 of my acne journey. As promised I am now revealing products that I had researched over the lock down period. This products were personally bought with all my money and invested time to research each specific item. Some items that will be mention later on were already personally used over the years and already proved that it is effective to me.

Prior to this topic blog I will do, I mentioned yesterday that I have not yet putted anything to my face to see the difference and effects of the products that I will be using. Contrary to that, I applied a nourishing tomato toner from Human Nature, a sunblock cream from Maxipeel and liquid foundation from Loreal in the shade Natural Buff. Only, to my forehead. And that's because I went out to work this early morning. I broke the rule, yes! I'm sorry :(

Okay, drum roll please....

Yes! I bought a new toner today, I already received it. I ordered it online from Shopee. It's worth Php 615. Php585 for a 344mL bottle and Php30 shipping fee,yeah had a discount voucher. I  checked the authenticity, the paper was not printed in cheap paper, it has a batch number on the bottom of the bottle and it is sealed just to make sure it is not leaking or been replaced with another product! and yes! It is genuine!

Let's talk about this toner! yes! I am quite intrigued by this toner by which several women all over the world has been using this toner especially with those suffering hormonal acne, cystic and adult acne which are called breakouts in my part.

VIOLA! THAYERS NATURAL REMEDIES FACIAL TONER!!!!

This is it. Finally after so many years, I already bought it and it is available locally in a very convenient way! Imagine we are all in lock down right know but shipping and delivery of goods are so easy and smooth. I will not yet give a final review about this product because I have not yet tried. So yes! I researched a bit about this toner and I was a bit excited and amazed cos it is already been working miracles and wonders for so many years. From sterilization, components and effects. Millions have been satisfied. I will not go over about its component and what it is made up because there are hundreds of searches over the Google so you can just look it up by yourself on a different tab. My blog will be a living testimony and not about giving facts and component of a product I have not yet tried.

Btw, I bought the item in cucumber cos there is no more available variant. Many reviews claimed that cucumber variant doesnt smells good. And yes it is not pleasant to the nose but you can really determine that the item is natural, not thoroughly filtered and doesnt add too much fragrance and preservatives.

Second product on my list is the Safeguard Detox with tea tree. It is new in the market and I want to give it a try since I am an avid user of Safeguard all these years. Safeguard is not just a brand, it has been my best friend since I got this bumps and breakouts. This detox soap has three variants,charcoal, pomegranate and tea tree but I decided to pick  tea tree. This detox soap targets removing excess oil, sebum, dirt and impurities from our faces leaving it smooth and clean. I want to give this soap a chance and see what will it happen. This soap will cost you Php75 per 108 grams. Bought it at Puregold.

Third on my list is the non-dying Benzoyl peroxide. There are a lot of brand companies of this ointment but I always pick from Galderma's Benzac. This ointment gives remedy for swelling, inflamed, red, fresh and itchy pimple over night. Get the 5% solution in a 15gram tube size will cost you Php400.75. Bought it at Watson's.

 

And last on my list is the new Olay Mochi mochi night cream in 7.5 grams it will cost you Php44. I bought it at Puregold.

Okay so that will be the products I will be using tonight. I had break down the cost per piece and where to buy it. Next is how to use it per item and the correct application of the product.

**NIGHT SKIN ROUTINE:

First thing when you wore make up, remove it first with a make up remover. The best I have tried was Garnier Skin Naturals Micellar water.  You can remove it with a cotton puff or best with a facial tissue/ facial wipes.

Second, wash your face with Safeguard Detox with tea tree. Wet your face first, when damp wet rub the soap first into your palms and make it whip foamy. Softly lather foam into your cheeks and forehead down to your t-zone. Don't harshly rub it or scrub it with your fingernails. The soap will remove all oiliness and you can feel no grease after rinsing it with cold water. Just dab the towel to your face, don't roughly wipe it. Be gentle in tapping the towel into your breakouts.

Third, when face is thoroughly dry. Apply Thayers Toner in a cotton puff or ball and swipe it through your face softly. Just making it wet is enough. You don't need to roughly lathering it all over.

Fourth, wait skin to dry after few minutes,you can apply small dots of the Olay mochi-mochi night cream. And into your neck. Don't forget to moisturize your lips with petroleum jelly or lip balm.

Lastly, apply Benzac on target pimples only. You can not apply this ointment all over your face otherwise you will flake the next day. A small pea-sized ointment is recommended and applying it only to inflamed ,fresh pimples. Dabbing it in a very thin layer. Let it dry and leave it overnight. Take note that the ointment has bleaching properties, applying it thinly on skin is very important,otherwise your pillow cases might get white spots if they are not light colored or even your dark colored towels when you wash your face the next morning. Applying too much on your eyebrows may cause thinness too so very cautious in applying the ointment.

You can now have a sound sleep knowing your skin is all prepped for the next day!

I will be posting pics of my face after the night routine.

This is my face after the routine. Take note that a tingling sensation is happening right now meaning the products used were doing its job. Tomorrow let's see what our skin has improved. See you! Goodnight 😘

My Acne Journey Day 1: Knowing your flaw

Hi everyone! It's been a while since my last post. After so many years I came back to a very interesting topic to make. Yep! That's what on my title now! ''Acne Diaries''.

I don't have a perfect skin all these years I've been struggling so hard about acne,body acne,breakouts,oily skin and the like. I decided to make a journal this year because I've noticed that my breakout were coming all over again every year,worst. There is no such month that a pimple will pop out from any part of my body,unfortunately it targets the face. From the past few years,breakouts are appearing in my jawline,chin,and cheeks. Unlike when I first had my pimple way back 2nd year high school, pimple appears on my nose, forehead,t-zone area. I had read few articles and watched vlogs that breakouts appeared on jawline and chin are more likely to have problems with hormones and reproductive glands. Not too serious but let's go breakdown the events,researches I've done and start this journey together.

I recalled the time when was the first time I had pimples and that's when I was in sophomore high school,summer. About to enrol for juniors. I had body acne,pimples start to appear on my chest and back, a few on my forehead(which is understandable) to be from staying up late at night. Of course because of studying hahaha! I didn't have pimples from the earlier ages because I am still young,pores are still tight and hormones are ok. My menstruation cycle is doing ok it is regular. But when I start to use hair conditioner that is the time I started having body acne, hair conditioner which drips on my back and chest is not ok. So I adapted that changes until now,after every shampoo I put conditioner then tie it up with a hair clam or shower cup just to make sure no conditoner can drip to my back and chest. Leaving with scars all over these years is devastating,now that I noticed that my scars were like colloidal. It doesnt flatten over these years. I already solved my problem about body acne and treat them with Human Nature's Sunflower Oil (Php349,200mL) every after bath. I never had body acne worst.

Now for the main event, breakouts on the face.

God! Tracing it from the genes, yes! My mum had acne when she was teen. But it was all gone, she treated it with accutane. (Vitamin A, named Affaxin,sold over the counters,100iu the lowest). Yes! I even took Affaxin before ,I had the highest iu which is 40,000iu and damn! I took it every night and a side effect happened. My belly button was so damn itchy! Pimples were like drying but yes scars are crazy. I discontinued it because my belly button was so itchy and I needed to treat it with tea tree extract. I disgusted smelling it yuck!

Pimples when I were in high school worstens when I was about to graduate and it started on my jawline. I really don't remember what I used or took to treat them. Freshman college,sophomore,junior til senior,yes I am having pimples but not severe. Different products were used until I found a matched product thats suits my skin which was the Maxipeel. From facial wash,astringent,sunblock,moisturizing cream and concealing cream. The beauty guru from my colleague taught me that using a specific brand should be consistent to see a huge difference and effectiveness.

I started my job as a bank teller way back 2015 and small pimples were growing in my forehead which is really normal for me espcially when my period is about to come. I started seeing old pics from 2015-2017, same part of my face were pimples are popping out. Body acne was least growing too. Latter part of the year 2017, a client introduced me a face cream which is published as not FDA approved. It gave me glowy skin at first but it gave me damage all through out. Gori cream was the name of the brand. Small bumps that touches like mushrooms when I touched them below my chin and started to breakout! Holy molly! That was the first time I got a serious breakout on my face!!! I was so desperate to find a solution, online shops like W II products thats costs almost Php5000. And I also got a membership at Frontrow and took their gluta pills. All solutions had no answer. I just patiently used W II products for 3 months and it gave me temporary solutions. The next year 2018, I had a breakout again before I leave Thailand for vacation, on my jawline again. I just patiently bought organic products and Safeguard pink for facial wash.

Last year 2019, had a minor breakout again before I left for Cebu, May ,2019. Just patiently used Koji Kojic soap with Safeguard pink. Constantly before the year ends,pimples are healing. Leaving just damn scars.

Yes January 2020, no more breakouts,only scars. I left dairy products out of my list because they cause me allergens that breakouts will go out again. Yes! Dairy products like cheese,milk,ice creams,milk teas,yogurts will trigger acne! So I dare you guys! Don't be tempted. I know it's hard.

I started enroling gym later January 2020. And damn! A wrong mistake happened. I always forgot to remove make up before work outs and yes! Break outs again. And that's when I always remove make up first every before and after workouts.

March 2020, a pandemic is currently in the Philippines. Lockdown are everywhere. No where to go, masks are on. Still break out are happening, why? Unhealthy foods,junks,instant foods,oily foods. Yes,admit it,it's so good to eat especially your favs but can you do not eat that forever? God! This is so sickening. Every year my breakout tore me apart. Seeing myself in the mirror,waking up with a newly born pimple is so fucking sick!

This journal is not about self pity. This journal is a written proof that I can also eat foods I am longing to eat and brace my self even more. From today Day 1, come and witness me to my journey about fighting acne and bracing yourself to feel beautiful inside and out.

Day 1: Knowing your flaws

It's been more than a month since an enhanced community quarantine is going on right now. People are not allowed to go out as much as you want. And mask is a must whenever you go out. First week of March, I noticed small bumps in my jawline left part of my face. I thought it was just blackheads that can be easily pulled out with pore strips but unfortunately now last week of April those small bumps came out as pimples and start to break out. It is so itchy right now but I prefer not to touch them with my hands or prick them. I also decided not to put anything with it. I just washed my face with Safeguard Detox in Green tea,day and night. No toners,no creams,no masks,nothing. I just apply petroleum jelly on my lips and thats all. I just want to let my skin breathe. Since we are all locked up, no one will see my poor,pathetic,ugly skin. So hell yeahh! Don't care no more hahaha!

All the time I got locked up here at home, I watched the most watched videos on Youtube, collated info and researched things for acne. Listed down all tips and tricks,remedies and vitamins,products and skin care routine. And this blog is all about that! I am finally going to do in the first time of my life an Enhanced Beauty skin care routine! Hahahaha (drum roll pls)

But not going to do yet at Day 1 cos this post is a series, day 1 will just about to know your skin well and update the current skin condition. I will be posting my current skin condition now and day by day I will update  you guys and how my skin care routine is going on.

Since I will be using a new found product and technique on how to prevent breakouts and get rid of scars and blemishes, I decided not to put anything yet to see what will be the effect to my skin after 2-3 days without skin products. The products are not yet with me. I will reveal them tomorrow at day 2. Disclaimer all products were personally bought. No such thing as sponsored. I bought it all by myself. Locally.
So this blog is about self discipline too, not eating foods that you are allergic and will cause acne and also will teach you how to spend well for self worthy products.

Ok, so this is just a beginning of a journey. See you tomorrow for the products to be used in this blog! Goodnight!

*** This is my current skin. All were red,inflamed, small bumps together,itchy,some has pus.
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"Letters to God (movie review)"

A blessed afternoon to all of you guys! I just recently watched a movie entitled 'Letters to God' from 2010. My eyes are really in deep soar right now. I was crying hard all the way since the beginning til end hahaha! Well, I was a bit emotional and easily carried away especially drama movies. This movie is so awesome! You could check its trailer above. I really don't know that this is based on a true life experience until the real name and the real picture of the child boy appeared at the end.

The story was about a boy named 'Tyler' was diagnosed in brain cancer and was writing to God letters everyday. His writing about his daily things, the people around him, and his neighbors. There was a mailman who is horribly a drunkard and was called back to duty. His boss gave him Tyler's mail addressed to God and he just laughed because he don't know where to mail it. But then Tyler said to him that his letters to God can be mailed anywhere and the drunkard slowly changes its life by reading Tyler's letters to God. His mother almost gave up because he can't continue his chemotherapy due to cancer cells complications. Tyler's classmates made a way just to relieve his tension but in the end Tyler died. His writings affected all his neighbors to write letters to God too and all his schoolmates. After Tyler's death, almost all cancer survivors voiced out all their stories, shared their near-to-death experiences and advocate youth to pray.

This movie really gave me goose bumps. Very inspiring especially to all cancer patients. I was so amazed to Tyler because he really made a legacy before he died. And he knew that God never fails to listen in all our prayers. I may also start writing letters to God too. Telling him all my activities, my achievements, my troubles,problems, confessing my sins and even giving thanks. And God will write our name in the Book of Life. He knew what is really for us. He never gave anything that he knew that it is not best for us. God all knows what is in our future. It is up to us if we will mold it or destroy it. God's time is never late nor advance so just wait for Him to give what is for you. God is so merciful that even a small boy could change a man's awful pasts. Let us reflect to the deeds Tyler had made for us and for all our brothers and sisters. Jesus Christ is our salvation,our savior! God bless everyone!

"Guardian Angels"

Are angels real? Are there fallen angels? Does guardian angels do exist?

These are just few questions which I wandered way back when I was 5. Maybe they exist going back to ancient and bible times. Angels do really exist. Religious-catholic people, lay ministers,lay leaders and pastors knew these stuff. I grew on a religious and devoted family where my parents taught me and my younger sister to pray the Guardian Angel prayer. And it goes like this:

''Angel of God,
My guardian dear.
To whom God's love, commits me here.
Ever this day/ night be at my side,
To lead,to rule
to guide and love, Amen.''

This really helps me to ease my feelings and fears whenever I recite this prayer especially during exams, quizzes and even getting for a job interview. This prayer really gives me guts and knowing that my guardian angel Raphael (one of the seven archangels) is still up above to guide me, It's not even bad not to believe from our elders that there is still up above who is watching all our deeds.

Well, if you ask me if angels are real? a big YES! angels are everywhere I tell you. It doesn't need proofs or evidences just to believe. If you knew the answer in your heart. There are angels! Your guardian angel is there at your side. Keeping you safe from harm, diseases, temptation or disasters. Just be silent, call them from your heart and there presence is still there even if you can't see them.


Fallen angels? I remember back the movie where Nicholas Cage is one of the casts entitled "City of Angels", its a movie where a guardian angel (Nicholas Cage) always guides a girl surgeon(Meg Ryan). Almost all of her major surgery were successful because of her guardian angel then eventually this guardian angel fell in love with the surgeon even if she is engaged. But then, the guardian angel finds a way to be human to love the surgeon mortally. Then, the guardian angel met a patient that is a guardian angel before. He told him how he became human by surrendering his immortality and when he became human he finds this surgeon and confessed that he is the angel behind those successful surgeries. Unfortunately, the surgeon died but then the angel experiences mortal body and felt happy. In this movie, the patient where the angel met told him that 90% of the world's population are fallen angels. Where angels surrender their divine being and became man because they fell in love with their masters. Well, maybe I could say that I partially believe in this. hehehe! That's why, I ain't have a boy friend yet.

Angels? yeah, maybe real maybe not. Well it's for you to find out!

Want to know who is your guardian angel? Check it out here--> https://www.angelhaven.com/aod/

''Bratz (Movie Review)"

Hi Guys! It's nice to be back in blog site again. It's been a year since I posted my last article. Well, there are so so so many things that happened for almost a year and a half. Finally! I graduated college! WOOHOO! Got my Bachelor's degree in Business Administration major in Financial Management. Love life? yeah, few guys leaved and left hahaha!

Well, back to the blog. I want to share this movie to all those who just graduated college,high school or even just elementary. I really relate to this movie. Here above is attached the trailer,check it out. I remember my best friends here. But sad to say we are just two hehehe. Real friends are really hard to find especially in college. Thesis papers, OJT problems, long chapter tests, departmental exams even NSTP community services. Damn! Burning hell! Kudos to all College graduates! At last, WE MADE IT THROUGH HELL AND HEAVEN! YEAH! \m/

HAHAHAHA! Here in this movie, I remember 'Mean girls' who also made their way to evil deeds and laughs. But in the end, friendship and sportsmanship is the lesson you will learn. A Real and True friend is your greatest achievement you could ever won. Well, HAPPY GRADUATION to all of US! The next chapter of our lives is still waiting for us. Be happy! Rejoice and SMILE :)

''How to condition yourself after a breakup (for girls only)''

Once upon a time, you were in a relationship, happy thoughts, ravishing smiles, sweet thoughts, lovely greeting cards, anniversary souvenirs, candy wrappers in old coat's pockets, sparkling eyes, butterflies in your stomach, insomnia in the night, kisses and hugs, ''good morning'' texts in your inbox so on and so forth. Ahhh! imagining yourself in an aisle with you and your guy in an altar. But after all this fantasies, it totally went down after an unresolved issue. Is it your hairstyle? your make up? your attitude? or being stood up? It really hurts you most when you two didn't had a serious closure. Well, I have 5 tips/ advise for you to carry on and realizing that he isn't the perfect guy! ;)

1. Don't be bitter. Be better!

When you and your boyfriend broke up, try not to communicate to him. Unfriend him on facebook, delete his number or just block him on your messenger. This will help especially when you two are just living in a distant street. After months of ignoring him. Think of all the good things when you and your boyfriend are still together. Good memories like when you were in your first date, your first movie together, you're favorite song, your weekend getaway or even your first night together. First things first, you were so happy with him so why not think those old good days and take that as a reflection to yourself on how and what did your ex liked about you. Don't be bitter even though someone had taken your place as his new girlfriend. It's also your chance to stay up alone and wait for your right guy to come.

2. Have a makeover.

Why not shop for yourself? Go try a new hairstyle? New fragrance? Work on for abs? Or having a new trend for your tees? Isn't it refreshing to have a new aura after a breakup? It really works! I bet ya! Go the salon and fix those tangling hairdos.

3. Make yourself busy.

Make your life a bit tough sometimes. Find challenges, get along with work, be enthusiastic. But never forget not to be workaholic and stress yourself up. Find ways to make yourself happy and not thinking him all the way through. Give time to yourself and think of all the things you've missed. Take some coffee breaks with your work mates, I bet he didn't like you to chitchat with your male workmates. Have lunch with your old buddies. Make some overtime. 

4. Cry

Cry alone. It's ok to cry alone especially when your alone in the night. It is pretty normal to cry especially to a guy you loved before in the first 2-3 months. Sooner or later you will get tired and face each day with a smile. I used to cry alone even though it's 6 months after we broke up. Because you couldn't imagine him with someone else now. But carry on, life goes on. You will fine better than him and soon realized why you never worked out. 

5. Change your perspective. Don't expect your standards. Meet and Greet

Change your taste in regards to boys. Change your preferences. Life is too short why not try to have new lover for the mean time and if doesn't sounds good for your appetite. You can easily practice this advises over and over again. Just make sure, you don't do it for rebounds. Explain to him in the first place,what is his role after your breakup. And after doing this things, sooner or later you will realized the situations

Have fun girl! Cheer up! 

Beef stew for the soul: Officially Missing You

Yeah ryt! I'm vain. hahaha

ok ok! I miss him. Can you not let your feelings over you? OMG! NO!!

Our relationship with my boyfriend is so so hard. Really hard! LDR! That's the term! As in LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP. Quite easy to say you can last, but tell me? How far?

I can say that on the long run, its pretty obvious it not working anymore. But i tell you, we can survive this relationship. We're both born on August, we're Leos. Leos are born loyal. We know the feeling of being broken and left. So it's hard for us to see who's first to say we've cheat!

Secondly, we can survive this kind of relationship by use of our own cellphones. Prepaid load is a problem though but I know we're strong enough to say that we can last by not stopping our communication.

And lastly, We love each other so much. I meet his parents, his brother and cousin. I know thats an assurance.

Well, I think im just having my personal drama here again. Nothing to say much.

Just missing him.

"Hidden springs"

WEW! That was a summer break I am really expecting. We planned the outing unexpectedly. That was Friday when we planned to swim the other day, we bought some few snacks because we were thinking that we are off to swim not to eat. We just rode on a jeepney for a 32php fare each. I expect that the travel time will last for an hour but I was wrong. It took us just 45 minutes or less. Then we reached the place, pass through a hanging bridge built by bamboo stems. Then we were accommodated on a resort pool.

After placing our things and food on a cottage we've rented, we immediately went to the pool. Before splashing, we went to the steam bath. It's like a sauna. But it's too hot for us to dive through. It's like dipping our feet into boiling water. HEHEHEHE! 

Finally we swam all day, til our skin get burnt and dark. hahahaha! picture time!=)

The way was quite dangerous but it's worth it.

Really enjoyed the outing. The above photo is where the resorts are located. It is on the top of the mountains. Nice place,humid air,no pollution and the people are very friendly. Poblacion Itogon Benguet has a hidden treasure behind those pines. 

LEO HOROSCOPE: DECEMBER 2,2012

Tomorrow's Horoscope For Leo:
Since Mars returned to your work sector 2 weeks ago you gave up any hope of keeping your work hat off over the weekend and that will be the case right through to February. Yet while taking your work hat off completely isn't an option you need to take time out when you can, especially over the weekend so that you can hear yourself think. With your imagination particularly sharp today, give yourself permission to take time out, just to hear yourself think.


Tomorrow's Lovescope For Leo:
With Mars still just over 3 weeks away from your relationship sector you have a chance to put all your attention onto a sense of romance, as the Sun makes his annual visit to your romantic sector. At the same time that the Sun's all seeing light gives you a chance to see what you want and need from love, the Sun's warmth is able to heal or melt the ice away from around your heart.

[timegenie.com]

LEO HOROSCOPE FOR TODAY: DECEMBER 1,2012

Today's Horoscope For Leo:
With Mars now the lead planet in your work sector things have taken on an even more manic pace, one that is going to stay with you right through to Christmas. As the Moon moves into a more reflective part of your chart he'll move into opposition with these manic work forces, bringing some timely reality checks and a reminder that you won't accomplish anything if you burn out too soon. This is a reminder of the need to come up for air from time to time.


Today's Lovescope For Leo:
It's understandable that you might be a bit dubious and unsure of whether you can trust the romantic energy in the air, for it's been 17 years since this didn't have to compete with relationship forces. Yet this year the love gods are putting all their recourses into making up for lost time on the romantic front.

[timegenie.com]