Jesus Calling: A bible series, Day 190/365

 

Good morning Lord,

I woke up so guilty today. Full of guilt and shame as I am in my luteal phase again. My hormones are freaking so active and moody again. I asked my self why I always been like this every phase of the month. There was a time that I was sweet and clingy and flirty sometimes but most of the time I am moody and annoyed and irritated. Yesterday after my 30-minute workout, I was annoyed and talked back random things to Paul which at the end of day, it broke my heart. I was in rage, I was irritated. I felt different as if I am not the Benaliza from yesterday. It felt crazy and stupid. So this morning right after Paul said good morning, I made amends and asked him to buy our train tickets on our upcoming holiday. Of course I apologised from last night. I was being silly and stupid. I don't know why I did that and I was feeling independent and b*tchy.

Overall, we are fine now and I am quite relieved. 

Yesterday I receive my parcel from Vinted which I bought a cute shirt that only costs me £2 plus shipping and I was a little stupid cos I did not wash it and it smelled so bad. Lol! It was my first time to smell a body odour from a pre-loved shirt like bro? Why did they not wash it first before selling them. In my first time of my life, I now felt how to have body odour from people hahaha. Honestly it's so bad. And how does a real person with body odour don't smell themselves? Hahaha! You can actually smell yourself! Or am I the only one who can do that? Smell yourself? hahaha! Crazy!

Anyway, the verse today emphasizes that the Christian life is an ongoing struggle requiring vigilance, effort, and perseverance. This ''fight'' is not against people but against sin, doubt, and spiritual distractions, and it is considered ''good'' because it centers on truth, holiness and the glory of God.

God bless us all!

Jesus Calling: A bible series, 187/365

 

Good day Lord,

I felt so energized today even if I didn’t go for a run last weekend. I had a sudden guilt not running and quite fussy. Paul said that it was okay but I felt a little anxious. I did a home workout though so just to overcome the guilt I did a few strength lifting and to mention my 2-km walk going to church and back home was an addition. Last Friday after work, Paul and I had an opportunity to go out and have some few drinks in one of the local bars in Datchet so I blamed him for not getting up on Saturday morning. Hahaha! But overall, we had an opportunity good night. We were both off last Saturday, I went to Slough and grab a few groceries and I was pretty calm and sweet last Saturday to be honest. Yesterday after church, I did laundry and the new fab conditioner that I bought smelled so divine. I cleaned the house all day after I had a quick call from my mum. I was a lil bit tired but satisfies because I cleaned the house which is fulfilling and satisfying in my part. I love making the house tidy and neat as the saying goes, ‘Cleanliness is next to Godliness’ which is true and correct. 

Today, Monday, 9am weekly catch up. Fair enough to ask me how was my week and how do I get along my work and colleagues. 10am, I had a call from Dan, our HR Director and we had a catch up regarding how was I settling in. I said I was ok, it was overwhelming, too many information to absorb and I am quite lucky to be with professional people and supporting people at my back. There are so many things to do and learn and I strive to do it one step at a time. So one thing I need to do is do my Canadian visa for my upcoming training so I can thrive better and do fulfill my duties as an office/sales administrator. 

I am very excited about it aside from that I can travel on the part of the world. 

This is all because of you Lord. It opened to so many opportunities because of your gifts. 

Today’s verse conveys that showing generosity and compassion to those in need is viewed by god as giving a loan to Him. It highlights that acts of charity are not merely social obligations, but hold spiritual significance. In return, God promises to repay or reward the individual for their deeds.

Jesus Calling: A bible series, Day 184/365

 

Good morning Lord, Thank God it’s Friday indeed!

Two weeks with my new work is so relieving. It was so quick. I am always grateful for the opportunity and for the blessings.

Yesterday, I attended the sales meeting with the Europe team and OMG! Literally OMG! I can’t believe it, it’s really big! I finally met the people working from all territories across the UK and Europe. I was seated all day with people working with all the sales and figures. The marketing, lead generation and pledges was crazy. But to be honest, it’s all almost the same when we do area meetings when I was still in the bank. Almost the same. The same strategies, the same commitment, the same quota. I am so lucky I am not in that position to look for prospects/leads and clients. Purely office/sales administration. I am working independently without rubbing shoulders with anyone or with a strict boss inside the office. NONE! Thank you Lord! I am so done with that kind of environment. 

Today, my managing director and sales director are not here in the office. They’re probably meeting customers and busy with meetings. I am all by myself, my the IT guys from India inside the office. Josley, one of the IT head support is going to the same church as me. I saw him last Sunday at church, I never thought he is a Christian because he’s Indian but his name sounds so Spanish. 

Jacqueline, one of the Senior Sales Manager, who is Scottish came to the meeting yesterday and she’s literally like a barbie doll. All dolled-up and so pink. I love her vibe, her alpha-woman attitude. And she brought some Scottish biscuits which were so tasty and delicious. I also booked her a taxi going to terminal 5 yesterday. I am so lucky to get contacts with Five star taxis. And she promised to catch up again soon once she’s back. 

Today, we have a beautiful verse from the book of Hebrews. This verse instructs believers to “make every effort to live in peace with everyone and to be holy; without holiness no one will see the Lord”. This verse commands a dual pursuit: actively seeking harmonious relationships with others while maintaining strict personal purity and devotion to God.

Making every effort. In Greek, this means to run swiftly after, pursue intensely, or chase with urgency. It requires deliberate, continuous energy. 

Live in peace with everyone. Believers must actively resolve conflict and foster harmony, extending even to non-believers and hostile outsiders.

Be holy. This refers to sanctification. It means being set apart from sin and dedicated entirely to God’s values and purposes. 

See the Lord. This means experiencing intimate fellowship to God, both in this present life and ultimately in eternity.

This verse serves as a vital safeguard when someone is facing an intense social isolation, financial loss, and temptation to abandon their faith in this high-pressure environment. 

God bless us all.