Finally I did my first 10Km this year! It’s been awhile since I run that long and strong. I think I was till in the Philippines sometime a year ago. The weather was breezy cold and cloudy that morning of Tuesday( March 17,2026) I was a little skeptical to go out that early morning since I saw the weather forecast It’s going to be sunny in the afternoon. And I’m glad I did go that morning. I was so happy I felt teary when I finish strong, the body ache was there late afternoon and the morning I woke up.
But as always, God gave me strength.

Mid running, on my 5th and 6th km, I passed Eton and on the riverside, I saw the swans and ducks swimming on the river morning. It was so amazing and it is a picturesque! I did not hesitate to take some pictures because it was so lovely. There were different sizes of swans. Baby swans and huge swans!!! I love them. I paused for a bit and enjoyed the moment until they swam away. The breeze was cool, a nice way to breathe all my stress away. The picturesque of the swans with Eton on the background very overwhelming! I really love running during morning. This little sweet moment I captivated relieve me from a disappointing news I heard the late afternoon which was I did not make it to a job interview i did last Thursday. But that was okay! I finally understood why it happened. God’s purpose is not what it is.
Few days after, I realized that I am still vain and ignorant. I am not seeing what God’s plans and will is. I always think about myself and my own convictions. I always listen to Hillsong worship playlist everyday every time I go to work but I don’t read between the lines, the lyrics, the words and the gospels. God’s plan is not always what we used to want is. God’s plan is always his will and his timing. His plans are never too bad and selfless like us. He knows better than I do. He knows what’s best for us. He knows what will make us happy and content. He knows what He is doing.
I realized that maybe it’s not for me? It’s not better? It will not make me happy? It will not make me grow? Or maybe it will be more stressful than the current job I am in. Who knows? But what I am trying to understand is, after all the miracles and all the things God gave me, why I am always doubting? Why do I always angry about things not turning out to be what I want to be. I am self convicting, selfish, and ignorant. I am a self centered person!
I started writing again..
Why?
I need to put myself humble again, this Lent, I decided to do social media fasting.. It’s been a month now since I used Facebook, Instagram and TikTok. It helped me slept better and early. Away from toxic culture of fame and vanity. I need to be the new me. Humble, selfless and. Self worthy. I need to accept it that I can’t earn from social media platforms. I am so weak to accept negative opinions and bashing. My patience is not for it. Collecting picturesque photographs is my happy but I can’t monetize them, I just can’t!
But here I am, writing again. Because this is my first passion.
Combining what I love, self content, running and motivation.
God’s purpose is one of my platforms.
God’s word is my inspiration.
I want to be selfless.
I want to surrender everything to God. He is my provider.
His love will keep me going. I always ask for patience and perseverance. He gives me trials.
He always knows I can overcome them because He made me strong.
I asked for strength, He gives me obstacles. He always knows what is best for us. So don’t lose hope.
Keep going.
Make me humble