Beef stew for the soul: Officially Missing You

Yeah ryt! I'm vain. hahaha

ok ok! I miss him. Can you not let your feelings over you? OMG! NO!!

Our relationship with my boyfriend is so so hard. Really hard! LDR! That's the term! As in LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP. Quite easy to say you can last, but tell me? How far?

I can say that on the long run, its pretty obvious it not working anymore. But i tell you, we can survive this relationship. We're both born on August, we're Leos. Leos are born loyal. We know the feeling of being broken and left. So it's hard for us to see who's first to say we've cheat!

Secondly, we can survive this kind of relationship by use of our own cellphones. Prepaid load is a problem though but I know we're strong enough to say that we can last by not stopping our communication.

And lastly, We love each other so much. I meet his parents, his brother and cousin. I know thats an assurance.

Well, I think im just having my personal drama here again. Nothing to say much.

Just missing him.

"Loving you though miles away"

Femme? Inlove? Demre?

Virgin? Wild? Nympho?

I wasn't suppose to tell you this.

I'm confuse on my behavior 

And I'm sure of this.

My amour is far away

I can't endure the feeling of my affair

Loving him in thousand ways

Distance can't turn us away

When the night is blue

And the sky is light

Thinking him since mid twilight

When will we feel the caress blown

Patronizing your tender lips like a sweet nectar

Smelling your flesh like a new baked suelo

Your essence

Your smile

The sparkle in your eyes

The sorrows behind each glance

The tenderness of each caress

The tempting steno of desire

Choosing him with every effect

Unconditionally, moving here on earth

Though living in warfreak dimension

Missing him a million times

Still killing this one-night lullabies

One word is enough?

Is it harsh to curse the light?

That flowsevery now and then

Remembering the succulent delight

Kissing him divine

Whispering me good night

Tapping my tits sweet byes

Adoring a cave of nice ties

Enduring the dawn with bitter tears

Staying up late having deep cries

Tickling myself to ease the pain

Do I need a sweet cane for the rain?

The weather is hot,

Sometimes cold

Rainy nor sunny

I don't know

When will my love

Will come back

The time is passing

The doors will soon locked.

"The Last Ink"

Never thought he’s the ONE.

Never expected that his my LIFE.

Never thought Life’s so unfair to condemn me.

Don’t even think that season’s will change.

Is it just?

Obligatory?

Is it a conduct?

Defining the sequence is never easy

So why decode it?

Are you a God?

A mythical creature?

Why give love a name?

Soft brooks,

Hard meadows,

Short gasps

Long cuts,

Desiring heart's ignition,

Future escapades

Hot tempered 

Ill lungs

Colored dreams

White reflection

Black souls

Infinite meaning

Hollow tongues

Brittle tips

Knuckled ear lobes

Sweet lips

Do we need a bed to define it?

Is it fair to justify love beat?

Or break my kiss to abandon it

Love me

Hate me

I am not a fool.

''Ways on how to make a Girl SMILE (PART 1)"

1. Send her a cute goodnight text while she's sleeping so she wakes up with a smile on her face.

2. hug her unexpectedly, tell her she's beautiful, send her home, kiss her forehead/cheeks, let her knw tht u love her

3. Call her "BABY" it will make her melt every time. Promise.

4. Play with her FINGERS, she loves the way your hand touches hers.

5. Tell her she is beautiful, not hot or fine.

6. Express that you miss her when you're apart .

7. treat her like gravity. You fall for her everyday.

8. spend time with her. There's nothing women cherish more than time.

9. Give her your Jacket when its Cold... And tell her she can keep it...

10. Only LIE to her if it involves SURPRISING her. :)

11. Be sweeter then candy, make her feel like she's your world, spoil her with love and care. She'll smile for awhile.

12. STAY by her side and PROTECT her. Especially when no one else does

13. Call her just to tell her that you love her more than anything.

14. Text her "Good Morning Beautiful! Let her know that she is the FIRST thing you think about when you wake up.

15. Tell her every night before you go to sleep just exactly how much she means to you.

16. Recognize the small things . . . they usually mean the most.

17. insecurities. Do not contact your EX.. And EX is certainly an EXample of ppl u shouldn't hv in the future

18. Buy her a single rose instead of a dozen

19. NEVER break your PROMISES and keep her SECRETS like they're yours.

20. tell her that she's just like the brightest star among the thousands and it makes you keep looking at her all day.

21. Treat Her like a Queen

22. Cook for Her

23. love her with all your heart ♥ and always be there for her :')

24. Respect Her Morals, Feelings And Thoughts. Don't Push Her To Do Anything. Move At Her Pace

25. show her she's always on your mind

26. Show her off to your friends, make her feel important.

27. Don't be afraid to admit when you're wrong.

28. Go to her house when she is sick, make soup for her, take care of her. You will be the best medicine ever!

29.Never give up on her. Even when she's messing up. Everyone makes mistakes but love can do anything

30. Tell her, "The day I go down on my knees for another girl, is the day I will tie the shoe lace for our daughter."

31. kiss her on the forehead or grab her by the waist and pull her and just look at her and kiss her <3 br="">
32. walk with her. Walk her home/ walk her to class/ stroll in the park etc

33. telling her she looks better without makeup...

34. writing long random cute letters and write it on her wall on Fb or texting it

35. She comes first. ALWAYS.

"Lamentations of Love"

I am the wind brought forth by the darkness of the night..
Silent, swift, and yet, subtle..
I am the first rays of morning light that races from the eastern horizon..
Soft, light, and so full of gentle warmth..
I am the first gentle drops of rain after a very long drought..
Cool,beautiful and so refreshing..
I am love..
And joy is mine.

I am not an accident of time, brought about by different forces..
I do not exist in a single moment, I am forever..
I'm not a product of spontaneous creation..
I do not suddenly occur at first sight..
But it is through me, that you see this world..
I am LOVE..
I am the alpha and the omega..

And yet, many times, I have been wronged..
For so many times, I have been blamed for grief..
Yes, the world goes round because of love..
I bring forth joy, and grief at my demise..
The flames of Troy and the blood of Romeo..
The birth of Christ and the death of Christ..
For Love,
For me.

Love, is somewhat like the finest of black chocolates..
90% bitter and 10% sweet..
Plaisir d'Amour,ne dure gu un moment.
Chagrin d'Amour,ne dure toute la vie..
Laugh,and laugh heartily..
aND YOU'LL CRY MORE OFTEN..
I am love..
And I do shed my tears..

Many have tried to find my meaning..
What is love? what is its object?
Many have tried, and ended in frustration..
For it is when you try to reason with love,
That you will discover that you have lost your own essence..
For I am not a matter of man's mortal thought..
Love is..
Because of love..

Yes, the world is borne of love..
And Armageddon beckons of love..
And when you laugh, I laugh with you..
And when you cry, I cry with you..
I do shed my own tears..
I cry..
Because of love.

''A fuckin' Advice''

~Fuck normality. Get piercings. Get tattoos. Do drugs. Get high. Drink till you pass out. Have sex. Love with all your heart. Play the music loud. Live your fucking life. Fuck what people expect of you. Do what makes you happy!

~FUCK U 28!!! >:(

''A real boyfriend''

A REAL BOYFRIEND
Just read this, it will make a difference.

If only everyone could see this and understand it.

When she stares at your mouth
Kiss her

When she pushes you or hits you like a dummy cause she thinks shes stronger than you
Grab her and don't let go

When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough
Kiss her and tell her you love her

When she's quiet
Ask her whats wrong

When she ignores you
Give her your attention

When she pulls away
Pull her back

When you see her at her worst
Tell her she's beautiful

When you see her start crying
Just hold her and don't say a word

When you see her walking
Sneak up and hug her waist from behind

When she's scared
Protect her

When she steals your favorite hoodie
Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night

When she teases you
Tease her back and make her laugh

When she doesn't answer for a long time
reassure her that everything is okay

When she looks at you with doubt
Back yourself up

When she says that she loves you
she really does more than you can understand

When she grabs at your hands
Hold her's and play with her fingers

When she bumps into you;
bump into her back and make her laugh

When she tells you a secret
keep it safe and untold

When she looks at you in your eyes
dont look away until she does

When she says it's over
she still wants you to be hers

When she reposts this bulletin
she wants you to read it

- Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok don't believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

-Treat her like she's all that matters to you

- Stay up all night with her when she's sick

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid

- Give her the world.

- Let her wear your clothes

-When she's bored and sad, hang out with her

-Let her know she's important.

- Don't talk about other girls around her

- Kiss her in the pouring rain

- When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is:
"Whose ass am i kicking baby?"

Guys post as: "I'd be this Boyfriend."

Girls post as: "A real boyfriend"

Quintessence Of Light (Act 2)

Boy, I've been thinking a lot

about who we could have been

if i was back home just chilling

with you and all my friends



But dear I'm gone

and that's the lousy truth...



For the past 3 years

I swear I've been a better man

than who I've become

I know, I know, I know I let you down

But I've been gone

for too damn long



So shine outward, not inward

You've been a selfish little girl

for the past 3 years

I've been through more than you can know

and God I don't want you to know



What I have been through

cause you just wouldn't understand

you're just a girl with some issues

as bad as it might sound



But you're the girl

who's been driving me mad



So if you go away

right now then I can't guarantee

that I won't break your heart

But if you go and stay then baby

That i will hope and pray

that you would run away

Cause dear breaks my heart

to see you here



Find a new boy, a new life,

a whole new set of friends

Cause all that I'll ever do is break your heart

and dear it breaks my heart

to see you here



Yeah, dear it breaks my heart

to see you here



But just so you know...



I've been thinking a lot of

who we could have been

if i was back home,

just chilling with you and all my friends



But dear, I'm gone

and that's the lousy truth.

Black Blood Written On A Note (Act 1)

Its a plague, this constant weight, it haunts my thoughts when you're away.

And would it be safe for one to say, I made your heart smile at the end of the day?



And what, what was hidden behind your eyes?

Was it love, or pain in disguise?

I know my love never took that away.

I know my love was just a plague.



With everyday I pray you'd say I brought you joy in some way.

But that's not the case, cause I took it away, I turned your joy into pain.

I know my songs were never profound, they were never sincere enough to make your heart sing out.

So where am i wrong, in hoping that I might someday realize where I was all along?



Where I was all along...

Especially for you ♥ (Post Monthsary Celeb)

~*i love you 28:">

Kwatro Anyos

it has been a month, one whole month and forever. Forever I know you’ll be here in my heart, in my arms, and when years go by I want you to know how much I love you each and every day. You are a miracle, each and every day with you I treasure in my heart. Every beat of my heart fills more and more with your love. You are the most beautiful person in the world, inside and out. You filled that hole in my heart that has been missing for years. I love you; thank you. I hope I make you as happy as you make me.

To me, Love, you are perfect. Perfect to me, everything about you. The beauty inside of you is miraculous. It is beyond what nature could ever possess. You are more beautiful than anything I have every seen in my life. Just take a look in the mirror and you’ll know what I am talking about.

Thanks for being there, thanks for loving me, thanks for being you. I love you with everything I am. No poems, no words, no letters, no gifts, nothing can ever express how much I love you, but you know how much that is.

Love Always,

~*siomai♥

INFATUATION?!!!

Being a Senior high school student, having an affair to an opposite sex is a pleasure to someone. Having that "kilig" factor is an advantage like girls at my age. Seeing your crush walking around the corridor or just saying a simple "hi" to him is such a blessing. The feeling of HEAVEN poured down from the skies. The essence of orhids and the pollens of sampaguitas just touched my wooden heart. His gaze, his moves and his eyes just gives me reasons to find TRUE LOVE insights...
His AUTHENTIC looks, his academic proficiency and the way he treats a woman, makes me fall in love...
No woman would not fall for him. He's a MASTERPIECE... an art displayed on a gallery that's not for sale... I would describe him as a piece of JEWELRY, a woman would ever love. A jewelry, that even a maiden coudn't resist. This fantasy of him will never loose the chase. Looking through his eyes' rushes through my veins and there's no motion in my heart. I'll never be the same 'coz he's one in a million. He's the reason why I breathe, the reason that I still believe that Love conquers all. Because he's my destiny...
Nothing can stop me from Loving him. I will follow, anywhere in anyway, I 'll never gonna let him go.
Thinkin' he'll be out of my life is a big chaos for me. My mind would turn black if I'd find out that he'll never likes me as usual. it's a big disaster, and I'll hold it badly. What will be my biggest mistake. Is there something lacking about my personality, my being or my womanhood? I never neede him for pointin' out my wrongs; I never neede him to be strong, my love for him was strong he shoud've known. I never neede him for judgment, I never neede him to question what I spent. I never needed his corrections on everything from hot I act to what I say. I 'm sorry for the way I let You go, of everything I wanted when he came along. I know next to him is not where I belong. And it's a little late for explanations. There isn't anything that I can do. This sufferings of mine hits me like a ray of sun; burning through my darkness night. Creeping me into my lonely hours.
When will this end?
When I finally realized, we were not meant to be?
When I saw him one day, he holds hand with another girl that once fits mine perfectly?
Or, when I find the right guy for me that'll make me happy but not to make me cry?
~AZILANEB02/13/10~

The STRUGGLES i encountered this past days...

Being a HIGH SCHOOL student,I almost encounter problems in school. Such as academic problems, peer problems, family problems, and the MOST common topic LOVE problems[lolz].
Teenagers like me, experience many situations in school through opposite sex. I do believe that the FIRST STAGE of having a relationship during high school is through CRUSHES.. When I was in freshman before,I never experience having crushes in school. I often look forward to other subjects like showbusiness,sports enthusiastic, setting a trend to my friends,and inventing a new style of fashion. I never intend to put my mind into a commitment at an early age. But when I became a Sophomore, I view guys at school with athletic postures, good looks, and with a pleasing personality. I never look guys beyond their looks but I realized I set standards just for displays..
But when I became JUNIOR, I rest my eyes to guys who aren't my real type. I admire boys with good looks but I disagree to like them if I knew that the boy I admire is dumb and stupid...There was a guy who is my friend since junior,and we both share text messages every night and fortunately we were seatmates. He often tells himself to me,but I was bored to listen his non-sense stuffs that makes me an idiot all the time just laughing at his corny jokes. But when an interpretative dance held in our school, we both join that contest as one of the participants in our class. We were the main cast of the dance group and luckily we need to hold our hands together because that is a part of the dance routine. I had a crush on him at first because when I hold his hand,OMG! It's so SOFT!!!and that was my first time to hold hands eith a guy!!!and a week later,I enjoy his presence and we knew that we were both mutual in our feelings..we also dance at our junior's prom and oh my god!!he became the king of the night!!!and of course i congratulated him. But time comes,he changed so badly. He's totally changed, a big difference!!!He became overconfident,proud,boastful,mean,and so talkative..and merely I dont like him anymore...
Now, I'm a SENIOR,were classmates again at the same class. I already move on with my life though I know we were not meant to be. I accepted the fact that he is not my soulmate..[though I believe in soulmates and destiny]
A few months ago, there was once this guy who is my first time classmate this year though I knew him for years since freshman. He is a punk,a skater boy, intelligent[actually he became a valedictorian when he graduated grade school]. and he's a religios person. He asked his friend if I entertain suitors and honestly I didn't figure out who is that mysterious guy..and he confronts me what is really his intentions for me..I don't react so soon but for a meantime I realized "I LIKE HIM"
he's nice....=p
ok,this is not yet the end..catch for more insights daily...

true love never dies...

True love never dies,even if you have found a new love, the sweet memory of the past will continue to hunt you for the rest of your life...