Jesus Calling: A Bible series, Day 126/366

Good day everyone! Today is wonderful! Smile amidst the chaos. Life is changing a bit, normal days will be coming. News about the pandemic is still there, and a big media company shut down. I don't really know who to blame, thousands of employees lose their jobs. The freedom of press was abandoned and everyone hates each other.

Times like this is hard to understand. Life became harder. Pandemic crisis, social and economic crisis. People felt so down. Anxiety, depression, even hunger is in every Filipino homes. Who do we ask for help? We really can't depend our relatives, even our government. We felt we are living in the dark, abandoned my God.

But don't think of that, God is with us no matter how hard life knock us down. Sometimes, God is testing our patience, our faith and perseverance. He knows what exactly our attitude and He just wants us to change a bit on how to act in times of trials. Always think that God is our light even at the darkest hours of our lives. He knows how to help us, just have that faith within. And learn how to pray cos prayer works!

Good night! God bless!

Jesus Calling: A Bible Series, Day 125/366

Hi everyone! Happy monday! It's the first day of the week. A new week to be grateful. Though the last few weeks were so tough and hard, the community quarantine was extended for another two weeks. Life is hard and we need to accept it slowly that it is not normal. "Social Distancing" is the term when we observe ourselves not to be closely attach with others especially on public places. One meter apart is the standard distance away from each other. Rubing of alcohols and alcogels is a must when you touch something on public that is not yet sanitized or cleaned. As if there is 'trust issues' nowadays.

But there is also a trust issue with Jesus?

Ok, trust. One word. Different meanings. Do you give your trust easily? Are you trustworth? Seems easy to answer. But for Jesus our saviour and redeemer, He is the only one we need to trust in times like this. Because He knew all good things are coming our way. Trust His time and it will be fruitful. 

Goodnight everyone! 

Jesus calling: A Bible Series, Day 124/366

Matthew 6:24 "No one can serve two masters, for either he will hate the one and love the other; or else he will hold the one." 


Happy Sunday everyone! It's the first sunday of the new month May! Let's rejoice for we have overcome fear from the passed months. Lock down has been two months and it taught me new lessons in life.

This verse from the bible simple says about God and money. The last quarter of the year 2019 and the first quarter of 2020 has been so tragic. Not only to me but its been consuming mostly of the people's lives all over the world. Imagine a war where all people don't see the enemy. And the least we can do is to stay home, pray and learn. If you can't stay home now, you' re dead. Either you can be infected with a deadly virus or you will be caught by military men. The COVID 19 pandemic is the talk all over the town, the world, the news, social media, supermarts even on televisions, and radios. There are no other topics. Statistics were like 3 million cases all over the world. Several countries in Asia, Europe, the U.S has been in crisis right now. There were reported of hoarding of supplies. Face masks, gloves, tissue papers, canned goods even alcohols were all consumed and shelves on the grocery were all empty. I can't imagine how rich families bought all those supplies to stack and pile them up on their closets. There are no such hoard situation happening if they just buy 2-3 pieces of alcohol not a whole box. Middle class families even the poor can't even have the opportunity to buy because shelves are now empty. Even canned goods like sardines, instant noodles, processed meats and frozen goods are almost empty. The whole world is in crisis especially the Philippines which is one of the third world countries who is striked by lightning when the virus is reportedly arrived in the country. Honestly, we are not ready. We don't have an emergency fund like this. Personally I don't have a fund for calamity or emergency like this. I am very lucky to work with a company which they greatly took care of their employees. We have this hazard pay be credited at the end of the week thats costs Php1,200/day. They gave us face masks and shields, gloves, vitamins, alcohol. They don't force employees to work especially not everyone has private cars, since all public utility vehicles and jeepneys are suspended. I am lucky that my Dad drives me at work and fetches me, since his work is also suspended. I pity workers walking down town early morning just to give essential services. Gosh! It is so hard. And yet stubborn people especially in Manila area were they insist going out of their homes. I also understand the fact that they need not to depend on the government for special amelioration and relief goods. They also need to find ways to survive. We are not a rich country where the government can give everything for us. We need to earn. Especially in our community, we are not given enough relief so I need to earn to sustend our needs. Basic commodity is a must today, rice, the very common for the Filipinos. We can survive daily with rice on our tables, even if there is not enough viand, as long as their is rice. We can live. The crisis greatly affects minimum wage earners, for they will not be paid of they don't go to work. No work,no pay. They are crying for mercy on televisions. I really don't know who to blame for this pandemic crisis. Honestly, people need money today. For without money, we can't buy our basic priority needs. There are so many people starving now. We Baguio people has so many ways to get food. Vegetables are very easy and convenient to get here. We can get here on our backyards like sayote tops and fruits. Crops like kamote, potato, carrots and beans are easy to grow on our yards. High landers are very lucky unlike in Manila. Canned goods and instant noodles are not healthy. You might get a problem after eating it everyday and get sick. I wish this war ends very soon. In this situation, you really can not determine who will you have faith with. As per the quote, "God provides." Yes God provides. News about volunteers and private sectors who donate are such overwhelming. They give what they can give. They are instruments of God. And bless them. Thanks God for being such a blessing to everyone.

Churches have been closed, but our faith with God became stronger. With our families with us, nothing can beat a stronger prayer. Money is very essential today. All people needs money. But it is just a paper value. God's mercy is more valuable. He knows what we need. God never sleeps nor blind or deaf. He heards all our cries, our demands and our prayers. All we need to do is have faith. Seeks and you shall find. Knock and it will be open for you. Ask, and we will receive.

God bless everyone!

Jesus calling: A Bible series, Day 123/366

John 10:10 "The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full."

Hi everyone! Welcome to another journey I am writing now. It's called Jesus Calling: A bible series. This journey started 2018, I created a group page on Facebook where I share a verse from the bible every day and copied a text from the book itself and members on the group can share it freely. All other members can share bible articles on the group page. It just happened that I stop posting reason is I find myself hypocrite. And I'm a bit guilty about that. Other than that, you can search that group page out on Facebook. Jesus calling. And all are free to be accepted as members. 

Let's start that habit again on my blog. I want to fill my blog with happy thoughts not just an online diary about hate and vanity. I will be posting everyday a bible verse randomly and I will share an experience or a thought basing it on the bible verse. 

First verse is about John 10:10. First and foremost, my religion is Roman Catholic. I don't have any plans of changing it now or in the future. I was born with it and be dying on it. You know honestly, religion is nothing when judgment come. It is not religion that will save us, it is our faith. I believe that we have only one God. He has many names, many forms and many churches. God made one universe, one planet that we live today and eversince .He made us in His image. Everybody is the same form and image. My mother is human,not animal, she is breathing and so is me. In short, human beings have the same features. Nose,eyes,hands,legs, and many others. Other persons were born with incomplete body parts, has syndrome, diseases, or even disabled. Those are not there faults. It is a special thing God gave for their families. It is the family whether they will accept it or abandon them. I pity a child whenever I hear a story about abandonment just because he/she is crippled,blind, or even with a syndrome. A child born with it should be loved, give full attention and consideration. Sometimes I feel pity myself whenever I have a problem and can't resolve it and question God. Something is saying to me at the back of my mind that I should be lucky for having a life with complete body parts and in normal state compared to special children who were abandoned. That should be also a thought criminals should think. I have one moment in my life when I stole something. And I felt so guilty doing it. It costs small but a big difference was replaces. I almost experienced karmas in my life. A small deed/ act has a big responsibilities. I can't imagine how a big time slunderer,murderer, or even a notorious person can do a crime without even a conscience. Life in prison may not even enough for their crimes but remember Jesus and the Father forgave them afterall. Tell me? It's unfair right!? Yes it is! It is unfair but that is Love. Unconditional love my friends. Remember Jesus lived as a human being to tell as that life is temporary. All living things die. But Jesus lived just not to die, He died for us. His teachings, his preachings, his words and works will remain in us forever. We just need to accept Him that He is our saviour and redeemer. Our sins my friends, is one factor that we live so far from God. Jesus died for our sins, and He died without second thought. He knew in the first place that He will die on our dirty hands, but He still chose that. Because that is what's best for the whole world. And He also rose from the dead my friends. That also tells us that there is life everlasting. When we chose to live in His ways, we will live again. 

Remember Jesus came for us sinners. Only we need to accept Him and live in His ways. That is the only way we can enter heaven. 

Goodnight and God bless!

My Acne Journey Day 5: Overcoming Stress

Hi everyone! Welcome back to my blog. Today I made a few pots for the garden out from empty coke bottle. I planted marigold seeds on it. I hope it fully grows soon and display it inside of the sala.

Yes! Today is day 5 of our acne journey. I was so shocked when I woke up this morning, my breakouts were peeling and flaking. I guess I had applied a thick layer of Benzac(Benzoyl peroxide) last night. But after I took a bath, my skin went ok and back to its own moisture.

Today I will share a lil about stress and how does it affect adult acne. Way back 2018, I had mentioned on my past blogs that stress can affect hormonal acne. Based on my experience, I went from many stress in the past. Work, financial problem, mental stress, and yes including love life. When we are in deep trouble or anxiety, stress hormones are going active. That is the time when pores are loosening, oil secretion and sweat are increasing. Heart and blood circulation are in an abnormal beats. That is why pimples and zits are starting to grow and yes it causes breakouts.

Way back 2018, I remember I had a problem with my colleague and it took my period for two months to arrive. And that time I was having a little stress about my Trip to Thailand. I studied all about Thailand for 6 months before I flew August that year. And yes, the stress is there and had breakouts not long.

Stress is also caused by iron deficiency. Taking vitamins with iron and zinc is good for the circulation of blood and skin. Stresstabs, Conzace, Ferrous sulfate are just one of those many iron vitamins out in the market.

Problems and trials are always there. It is normal for human beings to get in trouble, but don't forget that there is mightier than your troubles. And that is our Lord God. I had this one trouble last year going a year now. Was a long story, I don't wanna spill it online lol! To cut the story short, I got broke. Financially and mentally. I almost want to quit my life especially November last year was the worst of all the worst hahahah! I was enlightened, I talked to God almost every day and night of every step and action I made. As if there was an invisible armour of light in my side. Whenever I ask something of Him, there are situations that gave me favors. And as if there are small miracles happening that moment. I always shed tears inside the washroom whenever there were answered prayers. Like one instance, there was a bill thats needs to be paid that very day. I had no money that time, really even a single peso. I downloaded an online loan and prayed to God. Just a few minutes, the loan was approved. And I was really grateful that God hears me even the most silent cries. I am a witness of His miracles. I will be posting a separate post about Jesus' miracles and works. For now, bottomline, stress is one factor of breakouts. And as the saying, 'Prayer works'. Yes! It works.

Also, staying up late at night can cause pimples. Breakouts will appear at your forehead. So tip, don't stay up late, have a healthy sleep starting 10pm onwards for 6-8 hours is enough for adults. Rehydrate before and after sleep. I always drink one glass of water when I wake up in the morning cos we sweat while we are sleeping, fluid in our body should be replaced. Drinking water in the morning as a habit can prevent hypertension, bloating and stomach acidity.

These are pics of my face after our skin night routine. I applied Olay Mochi-mochi night cream under my eyes and areas with no pimples to see how this night cream works on oily skin.

See you tomorrow and Goodnight! God bless!

My Acne Journey Day 4: Breathe

Hi everyone!

It's a gloomy day today and rain poured late afternoon. Today is day 4 of my acne journey. I'm off for three days and I can focus on myself for the weekend and have the time to observe change on my skin for the next three days. Yesterday, I talked about hormones and how did I overcome it. I just want to add something about it, I took contraceptive pills last June of 2018 because I watched a few testimonials and articles that hormonal acne is caused of a high level testosterone in the body. That is why I have coarse hair on my upper lips and arms especially in my legs and armpits. I also read that high level of testosterone can cause PCOS for women. And I'm afraid that I may be one of them. But ever since I took contraceptive pills last 2018, my period became regular and is consistent for 28-30 days cycle. And I had observed that whenever I do strenous activities, my period delays for a week. But overall I never experienced period cramps and dysmenorrhea unlike my sister and mother did. I am one of those lucky women who never experiences cramps. Thanks God🙏🏻
Like what I have mentioned yesterday I discontinued taking pills because there are testomonials I heard about taking it in a long run. Just like what my colleague told me she had cysts on her ovaries that need to be removed and thats because of contraceptive pills.

Today's topic is about leaving things behind. As I ponder last night before I sleep, I remember all my mistakes from the past. I have this very rude attitude of changing skin routine rapidly. When a certain product is already empty I change the product most of the time. There is no exact skin product stayed for almost a year. And that's the attitude I need to change. If this toner I bought the other day will match my skin type. I would probably stay with it for a long run. This will be my forever regimen just to be sticking to one method. And that's exactly what I realized in the true events of my life. Not sticking to one partner. Wtf! Hahahaha!

Okay! Fine! Yeah! There's only one man I have in my life. Talking to him for 4 years already. A virtual relationship. And yes, I cheated on him several times but he really don't know about that. We keep on having blues in our relationship but the boat is still sailing. I love him. I have him at my worst. The day when I felt dying and told him I may not be able to talk to him cos I wanted to quit that night. Then the next day, I greeted him 'Good morning' and he replied 'Why are you still alive?'. That moment, I knew he is the one. Hahahaha! I will reveal him when the day comes that we will meet. And I know that is very soon. I really don't know why I wrote this lol. Maybe because a background of Ed Sheeran is playing right now hahahahaha. Jesus!

Anyway,  lockdown period is very tough right now. The feeling is like there is always someone watching our actions and deeds. I miss running down the trails, roads and hills. Running keeps my body fit, there was a time when I gained too much weight and there is a time that I feel so slim. Running helps me a lot. Being proactive keeps me away from vices like smoking and drinking. I admitted that I smoked and drunk a lot last year and that made me feel different and guilty. Running with an ailment is hard so I need to quit smoking and drinking. I will write a different post about overcoming stress. Sweating helps the body breathe. Though in my case, I really sweat a lot, a little movement or carrying something heavy makes me sweat. And my pores were really extraordinary. Pores on my nose and t-zone is very big and wide. They really get oiled up easily even if I wore matte foundation and setting spray. Honestly you know I get bullied at my work because even my colleagues notice it. They make fun of me and cracking jokes about my oily face. Sometimes they even want to deep fry food on my face because thats what oily my face looks like. Yes! I know you were imagining things too hahaha! Well, I get used to it. There's actually nothing I can do but to laugh with it because it's true. And that's what I really like to get rid of it. Oil,sebum,god! Sometimes blotting it is too expensive. I can take 4-5 blot papers just to remove oil on my face. Just to have a smart and thrift way, I use to blot it with facial wipes. And you can really see oil literally on the tissue paper.

Number one tip on working out, never exercise with make up on your face. I enrolled on a gym last week of January this year and I always forgot to take off my make up before excercise and sweat that builds up on pores got me irritated. It cause me breakouts. God! Thats a curse. From that day on, I always remove makeup with virgin coconut oil and wash my face with Nivea acne whip foam. And after doing exercises, I wash my face again.

I'll be posting pics after my skin routine tonight.

*** This is me after my skin routine. I decided not to put Olay mochi mochi night cream cos I noticed early this morning,my face was so oily and dewy. I thought it may add up sebum and can cause new zits to appear. So I just applied petroleum jelly on my lips and I'm ready for bed!

Now I made a video tutorial on how I treat my breakouts.
Watch it here:

Goodnight and God bless! ❤️😘

My Acne Journey Day 3: Hormones

Hi Everyone! welcome back to my blog. Today is day 3 of my acne journey, first I am happy to let everyone know that my period came. And that's a big factor right now because when my period get delays I experience the bad days of acne. And I am happy that my menstruation cycle is still quite normal now.

Today we will talk about hormones and how did I deal with it the passed years.

Btw, talking about that skin night routine I did last night, the toner was ok. The smell was not pleasant but just mild. As mentioned from the past blogs I wrote, the toner I bought was in cucumber scent. According to the vlogs and testimonies I've read about the cucumber variant, it does not smell good and smells like a lady bug. wtf! I honestly don't know what a lady bug smells like! lol!

The skin night routine I made was ok. I felt my pores were so tight when I lay back at bed last night. Then early this morning, when I washed my face that was just the only time I had the chance to touch my face cos I forbid myself whenever I touch it. I felt there were still new bumps on my left cheek but overall it was like over ripe hahaha!

I think my face were healing because my period came. Pores are getting tight and oiliness were reducing. My pimples were like drying cos it's been itchy every now and then.

Few years back, I remember my first break out was 3 years ago after my cousin's wedding exactly April too so I told my self that my pimples were getting worse whenever summer begins. And cracked a joke that its because its school enrollment now that's why my pimples were going back to enroll. I did few researches about acne and pimples growing at the chin area and jaw line, it constantly grows new bumps every month. The roots and pores doesn't close that's  why when I have new pimples, it just grows back at that part.

I read an article about hormonal acne, and you can determine if it is on your hormones when it is growing in your jawline,around your mouth and chin. I experienced this almost a few years back and that's because my period skips a lot of times, I got mood swings,irriatated and grumpy. I also read that to make your period in normal cycles,few women took contraceptive pills. I bought a few brands like Diane and Althea over the counter and you can not miss any single pill per day until you reach your cycle. First months were doing ok,my period was normal. But pimples still grow and I felt a bit dissapointed. I consulted an ob-gyne and just prescribed me Diane pills. I discontinued it after 4 months cos I felt normal but my acne is still growing. I am gaining a lil weight though my pores were tightened. Oiliness decreases,but my pimples grow a lil bigger but just a few grew. Breakouts were decreasing. I also read that if you continue taking contraceptive pills chances are there are health risks and I dont want to take those risks so I discontinued it. My period were normal every month. After some few months I noticed that whenever my period will come 2 weeks before breakouts will happen and its really devastating. I was like having my periods in normal cycle but why does breakouts still happening. It is because of hygiene? Food intake? Stress? I really can not see the main reason. It is like a disease it keeps going and going for life. Imagine I am already going 27 this year but look at me still having breakouts like a teen ager. Adult acne? Really? Seriously? Is this forever? Anyway, as time goes by I am now accepting the real me little by little. I always boost myself that beauty is only skin-deeped. But yeah, I am an aspiring make up artist who admire beauty. How can I market my service if I can not make the best version of me.

Anyway this is just the beginning, there are many things to ponder and be grateful. Beauty will fade my friends but wisdom will be forever. Hahaha! Ok enough of self pity portion. Down to my last part is the post skin night routine. The after look of my beauty skin regimen.

Thank you for the time and goodnight!

This are pics after I washed,toned and moisturize. Redness are still there, a few new zits.

See you tomorrow for another update!

Goodnight 😘

My Acne Journey Day 2: Revealing one self

Hi everyone! welcome back to my blog.

Today is Day 2 of my acne journey. As promised I am now revealing products that I had researched over the lock down period. This products were personally bought with all my money and invested time to research each specific item. Some items that will be mention later on were already personally used over the years and already proved that it is effective to me.

Prior to this topic blog I will do, I mentioned yesterday that I have not yet putted anything to my face to see the difference and effects of the products that I will be using. Contrary to that, I applied a nourishing tomato toner from Human Nature, a sunblock cream from Maxipeel and liquid foundation from Loreal in the shade Natural Buff. Only, to my forehead. And that's because I went out to work this early morning. I broke the rule, yes! I'm sorry :(

Okay, drum roll please....

Yes! I bought a new toner today, I already received it. I ordered it online from Shopee. It's worth Php 615. Php585 for a 344mL bottle and Php30 shipping fee,yeah had a discount voucher. I  checked the authenticity, the paper was not printed in cheap paper, it has a batch number on the bottom of the bottle and it is sealed just to make sure it is not leaking or been replaced with another product! and yes! It is genuine!

Let's talk about this toner! yes! I am quite intrigued by this toner by which several women all over the world has been using this toner especially with those suffering hormonal acne, cystic and adult acne which are called breakouts in my part.

VIOLA! THAYERS NATURAL REMEDIES FACIAL TONER!!!!

This is it. Finally after so many years, I already bought it and it is available locally in a very convenient way! Imagine we are all in lock down right know but shipping and delivery of goods are so easy and smooth. I will not yet give a final review about this product because I have not yet tried. So yes! I researched a bit about this toner and I was a bit excited and amazed cos it is already been working miracles and wonders for so many years. From sterilization, components and effects. Millions have been satisfied. I will not go over about its component and what it is made up because there are hundreds of searches over the Google so you can just look it up by yourself on a different tab. My blog will be a living testimony and not about giving facts and component of a product I have not yet tried.

Btw, I bought the item in cucumber cos there is no more available variant. Many reviews claimed that cucumber variant doesnt smells good. And yes it is not pleasant to the nose but you can really determine that the item is natural, not thoroughly filtered and doesnt add too much fragrance and preservatives.

Second product on my list is the Safeguard Detox with tea tree. It is new in the market and I want to give it a try since I am an avid user of Safeguard all these years. Safeguard is not just a brand, it has been my best friend since I got this bumps and breakouts. This detox soap has three variants,charcoal, pomegranate and tea tree but I decided to pick  tea tree. This detox soap targets removing excess oil, sebum, dirt and impurities from our faces leaving it smooth and clean. I want to give this soap a chance and see what will it happen. This soap will cost you Php75 per 108 grams. Bought it at Puregold.

Third on my list is the non-dying Benzoyl peroxide. There are a lot of brand companies of this ointment but I always pick from Galderma's Benzac. This ointment gives remedy for swelling, inflamed, red, fresh and itchy pimple over night. Get the 5% solution in a 15gram tube size will cost you Php400.75. Bought it at Watson's.

 

And last on my list is the new Olay Mochi mochi night cream in 7.5 grams it will cost you Php44. I bought it at Puregold.

Okay so that will be the products I will be using tonight. I had break down the cost per piece and where to buy it. Next is how to use it per item and the correct application of the product.

**NIGHT SKIN ROUTINE:

First thing when you wore make up, remove it first with a make up remover. The best I have tried was Garnier Skin Naturals Micellar water.  You can remove it with a cotton puff or best with a facial tissue/ facial wipes.

Second, wash your face with Safeguard Detox with tea tree. Wet your face first, when damp wet rub the soap first into your palms and make it whip foamy. Softly lather foam into your cheeks and forehead down to your t-zone. Don't harshly rub it or scrub it with your fingernails. The soap will remove all oiliness and you can feel no grease after rinsing it with cold water. Just dab the towel to your face, don't roughly wipe it. Be gentle in tapping the towel into your breakouts.

Third, when face is thoroughly dry. Apply Thayers Toner in a cotton puff or ball and swipe it through your face softly. Just making it wet is enough. You don't need to roughly lathering it all over.

Fourth, wait skin to dry after few minutes,you can apply small dots of the Olay mochi-mochi night cream. And into your neck. Don't forget to moisturize your lips with petroleum jelly or lip balm.

Lastly, apply Benzac on target pimples only. You can not apply this ointment all over your face otherwise you will flake the next day. A small pea-sized ointment is recommended and applying it only to inflamed ,fresh pimples. Dabbing it in a very thin layer. Let it dry and leave it overnight. Take note that the ointment has bleaching properties, applying it thinly on skin is very important,otherwise your pillow cases might get white spots if they are not light colored or even your dark colored towels when you wash your face the next morning. Applying too much on your eyebrows may cause thinness too so very cautious in applying the ointment.

You can now have a sound sleep knowing your skin is all prepped for the next day!

I will be posting pics of my face after the night routine.

This is my face after the routine. Take note that a tingling sensation is happening right now meaning the products used were doing its job. Tomorrow let's see what our skin has improved. See you! Goodnight 😘

My Acne Journey Day 1: Knowing your flaw

Hi everyone! It's been a while since my last post. After so many years I came back to a very interesting topic to make. Yep! That's what on my title now! ''Acne Diaries''.

I don't have a perfect skin all these years I've been struggling so hard about acne,body acne,breakouts,oily skin and the like. I decided to make a journal this year because I've noticed that my breakout were coming all over again every year,worst. There is no such month that a pimple will pop out from any part of my body,unfortunately it targets the face. From the past few years,breakouts are appearing in my jawline,chin,and cheeks. Unlike when I first had my pimple way back 2nd year high school, pimple appears on my nose, forehead,t-zone area. I had read few articles and watched vlogs that breakouts appeared on jawline and chin are more likely to have problems with hormones and reproductive glands. Not too serious but let's go breakdown the events,researches I've done and start this journey together.

I recalled the time when was the first time I had pimples and that's when I was in sophomore high school,summer. About to enrol for juniors. I had body acne,pimples start to appear on my chest and back, a few on my forehead(which is understandable) to be from staying up late at night. Of course because of studying hahaha! I didn't have pimples from the earlier ages because I am still young,pores are still tight and hormones are ok. My menstruation cycle is doing ok it is regular. But when I start to use hair conditioner that is the time I started having body acne, hair conditioner which drips on my back and chest is not ok. So I adapted that changes until now,after every shampoo I put conditioner then tie it up with a hair clam or shower cup just to make sure no conditoner can drip to my back and chest. Leaving with scars all over these years is devastating,now that I noticed that my scars were like colloidal. It doesnt flatten over these years. I already solved my problem about body acne and treat them with Human Nature's Sunflower Oil (Php349,200mL) every after bath. I never had body acne worst.

Now for the main event, breakouts on the face.

God! Tracing it from the genes, yes! My mum had acne when she was teen. But it was all gone, she treated it with accutane. (Vitamin A, named Affaxin,sold over the counters,100iu the lowest). Yes! I even took Affaxin before ,I had the highest iu which is 40,000iu and damn! I took it every night and a side effect happened. My belly button was so damn itchy! Pimples were like drying but yes scars are crazy. I discontinued it because my belly button was so itchy and I needed to treat it with tea tree extract. I disgusted smelling it yuck!

Pimples when I were in high school worstens when I was about to graduate and it started on my jawline. I really don't remember what I used or took to treat them. Freshman college,sophomore,junior til senior,yes I am having pimples but not severe. Different products were used until I found a matched product thats suits my skin which was the Maxipeel. From facial wash,astringent,sunblock,moisturizing cream and concealing cream. The beauty guru from my colleague taught me that using a specific brand should be consistent to see a huge difference and effectiveness.

I started my job as a bank teller way back 2015 and small pimples were growing in my forehead which is really normal for me espcially when my period is about to come. I started seeing old pics from 2015-2017, same part of my face were pimples are popping out. Body acne was least growing too. Latter part of the year 2017, a client introduced me a face cream which is published as not FDA approved. It gave me glowy skin at first but it gave me damage all through out. Gori cream was the name of the brand. Small bumps that touches like mushrooms when I touched them below my chin and started to breakout! Holy molly! That was the first time I got a serious breakout on my face!!! I was so desperate to find a solution, online shops like W II products thats costs almost Php5000. And I also got a membership at Frontrow and took their gluta pills. All solutions had no answer. I just patiently used W II products for 3 months and it gave me temporary solutions. The next year 2018, I had a breakout again before I leave Thailand for vacation, on my jawline again. I just patiently bought organic products and Safeguard pink for facial wash.

Last year 2019, had a minor breakout again before I left for Cebu, May ,2019. Just patiently used Koji Kojic soap with Safeguard pink. Constantly before the year ends,pimples are healing. Leaving just damn scars.

Yes January 2020, no more breakouts,only scars. I left dairy products out of my list because they cause me allergens that breakouts will go out again. Yes! Dairy products like cheese,milk,ice creams,milk teas,yogurts will trigger acne! So I dare you guys! Don't be tempted. I know it's hard.

I started enroling gym later January 2020. And damn! A wrong mistake happened. I always forgot to remove make up before work outs and yes! Break outs again. And that's when I always remove make up first every before and after workouts.

March 2020, a pandemic is currently in the Philippines. Lockdown are everywhere. No where to go, masks are on. Still break out are happening, why? Unhealthy foods,junks,instant foods,oily foods. Yes,admit it,it's so good to eat especially your favs but can you do not eat that forever? God! This is so sickening. Every year my breakout tore me apart. Seeing myself in the mirror,waking up with a newly born pimple is so fucking sick!

This journal is not about self pity. This journal is a written proof that I can also eat foods I am longing to eat and brace my self even more. From today Day 1, come and witness me to my journey about fighting acne and bracing yourself to feel beautiful inside and out.

Day 1: Knowing your flaws

It's been more than a month since an enhanced community quarantine is going on right now. People are not allowed to go out as much as you want. And mask is a must whenever you go out. First week of March, I noticed small bumps in my jawline left part of my face. I thought it was just blackheads that can be easily pulled out with pore strips but unfortunately now last week of April those small bumps came out as pimples and start to break out. It is so itchy right now but I prefer not to touch them with my hands or prick them. I also decided not to put anything with it. I just washed my face with Safeguard Detox in Green tea,day and night. No toners,no creams,no masks,nothing. I just apply petroleum jelly on my lips and thats all. I just want to let my skin breathe. Since we are all locked up, no one will see my poor,pathetic,ugly skin. So hell yeahh! Don't care no more hahaha!

All the time I got locked up here at home, I watched the most watched videos on Youtube, collated info and researched things for acne. Listed down all tips and tricks,remedies and vitamins,products and skin care routine. And this blog is all about that! I am finally going to do in the first time of my life an Enhanced Beauty skin care routine! Hahahaha (drum roll pls)

But not going to do yet at Day 1 cos this post is a series, day 1 will just about to know your skin well and update the current skin condition. I will be posting my current skin condition now and day by day I will update  you guys and how my skin care routine is going on.

Since I will be using a new found product and technique on how to prevent breakouts and get rid of scars and blemishes, I decided not to put anything yet to see what will be the effect to my skin after 2-3 days without skin products. The products are not yet with me. I will reveal them tomorrow at day 2. Disclaimer all products were personally bought. No such thing as sponsored. I bought it all by myself. Locally.
So this blog is about self discipline too, not eating foods that you are allergic and will cause acne and also will teach you how to spend well for self worthy products.

Ok, so this is just a beginning of a journey. See you tomorrow for the products to be used in this blog! Goodnight!

*** This is my current skin. All were red,inflamed, small bumps together,itchy,some has pus.
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"Letters to God (movie review)"

A blessed afternoon to all of you guys! I just recently watched a movie entitled 'Letters to God' from 2010. My eyes are really in deep soar right now. I was crying hard all the way since the beginning til end hahaha! Well, I was a bit emotional and easily carried away especially drama movies. This movie is so awesome! You could check its trailer above. I really don't know that this is based on a true life experience until the real name and the real picture of the child boy appeared at the end.

The story was about a boy named 'Tyler' was diagnosed in brain cancer and was writing to God letters everyday. His writing about his daily things, the people around him, and his neighbors. There was a mailman who is horribly a drunkard and was called back to duty. His boss gave him Tyler's mail addressed to God and he just laughed because he don't know where to mail it. But then Tyler said to him that his letters to God can be mailed anywhere and the drunkard slowly changes its life by reading Tyler's letters to God. His mother almost gave up because he can't continue his chemotherapy due to cancer cells complications. Tyler's classmates made a way just to relieve his tension but in the end Tyler died. His writings affected all his neighbors to write letters to God too and all his schoolmates. After Tyler's death, almost all cancer survivors voiced out all their stories, shared their near-to-death experiences and advocate youth to pray.

This movie really gave me goose bumps. Very inspiring especially to all cancer patients. I was so amazed to Tyler because he really made a legacy before he died. And he knew that God never fails to listen in all our prayers. I may also start writing letters to God too. Telling him all my activities, my achievements, my troubles,problems, confessing my sins and even giving thanks. And God will write our name in the Book of Life. He knew what is really for us. He never gave anything that he knew that it is not best for us. God all knows what is in our future. It is up to us if we will mold it or destroy it. God's time is never late nor advance so just wait for Him to give what is for you. God is so merciful that even a small boy could change a man's awful pasts. Let us reflect to the deeds Tyler had made for us and for all our brothers and sisters. Jesus Christ is our salvation,our savior! God bless everyone!