This verse is so powerful and so comforting. Imagine the Father telling us that it’s okay to doubt, to be afraid. It’s natural to be scared, but it’s so hard for us to trust Him.
This verse was written by King David while in captured by the Philistines in Gath. This highlights choosing faith over fear even during dangerous times. And encourages us to rely to God’s strength.
I remember last year of July, 2025 I got a job here in the UK as a Guest Services Assistant in one of the biggest hotel brands in the world. It is also known as a “hotel receptionist”, it is not a biggie since this role is my first job here in the UK. People say there are a lot of jobs here, but I struggled to find one. I also recall submitting my CVs to different companies over the internet, it was over a five hundred but none of them succeeded. This role was given by God, I remember I cried thanking and praising God for all his goodness. Imagine me transitioning from banking to hospitality. Also, communication is really a big challenge for me, because English is not my first language and communicating with guests and colleagues is a bi challenge. Slowly, I try to talk without accent, simple and specific terms. I thank my colleagues for being there for me, supporting my back and encouraging me to be better more everyday. Second, transportation is not a big problem but during late shifts, I need to walk a kilometer long alone in the street going home. But I continuosly thrive at work, I make sure I do and try my best everyday. Hospitality humbled me so much, from welcoming guests, doing kitchen work, learning F&B, communicating everyday in English. Everyday is a new challenge and learning for me. For seven consistent months, I topped the most enrollments. It also gave us bonus points which we can use to stay at any IHG hotels worldwide and incentives of 50GBP throughout the month so praise the Lord!
The salary was good but cost of living here in the UK is so extravagant. It was also a struggle for me to adjust especially on my first months living here in the UK. I spent all my savings from the Philippines, I even used my credit cards to pay off bills and expenses. Conversion and border fee killed me. I was crying every night to God, crying to sleep begging to give me a job. I was so eager to find a job to pay off all my debts, my loans, my dues, my daily expenses. God! You knew! T_T
I don’t know why I was so angry at those times when it was actually my fault. I couldn’t ask my husband, bless him he was so naive. It felt to me that he was so ignorant, insensitive and selfish. But it was actually my fault, I didn’t ask any allowance from him. I am so proud and boast. And I was so angry in so many ways.
Also, my husband booked a holiday with us in Bournemouth. He really loves the seaside. I loved it too. We stayed for 3days and it was a proper holiday for both of us since we did not have our proper honeymoon after our wedding.
When we got home, I applied a job at Holiday Inn Express -Windsor last July 28, 2025. And right on the spot I was hired. I was so lucky, I am so relieved and really cried. God really hears what I desired. It was not a big position but atleast I finally got a job. A new start, a new career, and a new beginning. I started my first day on my birthday. Really a wish come true, my wish really came true. A wish I really I was begging from God. Oh! Hallelujah! He remembered me.
Few months later, a difficult colleague was arising until this day. Other colleague of mine was telling me I was too sensitive to handle him. And yes! I admit that! I am too weak, I also tell my husband what I was been doing at work. He really is pissed too.
This current job is what God gave to me, and now I’m complaining. Just because there are difficult colleagues. Am i really grateful? Am I really thankful? Am I too weak? Or am I just afraid of rejections?This reminds me what was in Exodus when Moses led the Israelites to the land of milk and honey. God showered Manna everyday, but people keep complaining. People were so ungrateful and that was I in this difficult time. Sometimes I think God didn’t give me the job I had applied last week(take note it was my dream job), a work from home job. It’s because I don’t deserve it? Or maybe God knows I am going to be more stressful on that job. Who knows? God only knows.
Anyways, I already doing long in this current job almost 10 months. All my holidays were already approved. Patience, perseverance, and motivation is what I need the most now that I came far enough to quit.
Lord, teach me always to trust you. Why am I always doubting?
I know your plans are far better than mine. If this is what God wants me, I can wait.
Waiting..
Praying..
Trusting you always..
God is my provider, He is our FATHER. He knows better than we do. His plans are bigger than what we expects. He is making sure we are ready when he gives the perfect gift. He is making sure we are strong enough to handle big responsibilities.
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